I never check my phone during the school day - well not until my lunch period. I have an overload this term, so I have no off classes. I also never have my phone on vibrate when J is working. Today I did both!
At about 11:30am, my little 7th graders started on their homework, so I swiped my phone and saw that there was an odd number on the missed call list. For some reason I checked the message. It wasn't any of the firehouse numbers, any of the kids' schools or my FF's number. So, I am not exactly sure why I did. The message was my husband and all I could understand was, "I am at St. Mary's..." Had it been ANY of the other hospitals I would not have been too concerned. St. Mary's is in another COUNTY and it houses the BURN UNIT! I took a deep breath, excused myself from my little babies and started dialing in the hall.
J's phone went straight to voicemail, so my next logical thought was to call the firehouse. I did, ready with my calm voice and my list of questions. I literally looked at my dial pad when my husband answered the phone - he was already back at the engine house!
Turns out it was "just" a battery that exploded and caught him in the face - JUST! But, being a firefighter - on an engine - no matter what, there is always water around. So, he got flushed on site and the trip to the hospital was merely a precautionary move. He is extremely "itchy", but there are no burns. The doctor simply told him how lucky he was and left it at that.
Now, in the future, I will be forever reminded by this to KEEP MY PHONE ON RING when he is working. What if it had been something worse? I will also remember to be sure to kiss him goodbye at the start of every shift and remind him of how much I loved him - there was a day last week, aside from the retreat, where I did not take the time because I was running late. And hopefully I will not let myself think, "Eh, it is probably nothing." and put that call off until I have time, based on this experience. Lastly, hopefully I will keep my composure, just as I did today, no matter the circumstance.
What if my worst fears had been confirmed?
Please join me as work to make sense of my life as a fire wife. This is his TRUE calling. He was a tremendous elementary school teacher, but this is definitely where he sees himself happy. This is my journey to acceptance and support for my husband's dream job come true. Real, sometimes raw and almost uncensored. "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. . . when you walk through the fire, you will not be burned. . .for I am the Lord your God"
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
What if my worst fears had been confirmed?
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Mmm. Yeah. I had a moment like that the other day. Phone was off because I was trying to get some work done and it JUST KEPT RINGING. A missed call from husband. And THEN HE DIDN'T ANSWER. FOR TWO HOURS. Turns out they were just on a wreck, but I was sure that his missed call was something serious. He just needed an extra pair of socks. heh.
ReplyDeleteGlad he's okay! Scary!
I am glad I am not the only one. I was calm, waiting until I knew what the horrendous issue at hand actually was. It is amazing how much goes through your head so quickly!
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