We had a recent day of CRAZINESS with car crashes. Shutting down two different sections of Interstate for hours. Calls for Flight, multiple times. Shots fired.
My FF sent me a text that asking if I had heard anything about the accident. His questions were vague. Since it was all texting and he could not chat, we both misinterpreted the discussion at hand. It was not until last night, in bed, that all the pieces came together. Brain matter, bloody uniform and all.
I dropped the ball. I didn't understand what he was getting at with the questions. At one point I didn't even know which of the multiple accidents he was talking about. I think he needed to talk, but didn't want to force work on me yet again. I was enjoying the fresh air with the kids.
And I totally missed it.
I feel horrible.
Please join me as work to make sense of my life as a fire wife. This is his TRUE calling. He was a tremendous elementary school teacher, but this is definitely where he sees himself happy. This is my journey to acceptance and support for my husband's dream job come true. Real, sometimes raw and almost uncensored. "When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. . . when you walk through the fire, you will not be burned. . .for I am the Lord your God"
Wednesday, March 21, 2012
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ReplyDeleteIt's really hard to interpret things over text, especially if he was trying to be vague in his questions.
Don't worry about it. Sounds like he was able to talk to you when he came home, and the fact that he can, and does, is WONDERFUL.
OOooff! Been there... He will still need to talk, just find a quiet, KID FREE time to let him tell you what he's seen and how he feels about it. If it went poorly, just reinforce that he did all he could and no one can change the outcome...not even God. (if y'all are God people - don't mean to offend if you aren't).
ReplyDeleteMost importantly, cut yourself a break. And be prepared....talking about it once, probably won't be enough.
If ya need any advice....email me! Hugs and Smiles!!